Tuesday, August 16, 2011'♥
I'm here to update
Today we went geylang serai to walk walk
Was quite interesting...
After that he walked me home
On the way home, I asked him whether is he gg to acc me on my bday
His response was work.. I know that he have to work
But I tot maybe he will say after work then acc me or what
Am I expecting abit too much?? :(
My heart totally cracked but I didn't blame him at all
Bcos I know that the outcome will be like that
So I was abit over-reacted..
I know my reaction will make him give in to me
But when he said that he will go, his face looks so forced to go..
His expression tells it all..
Perhaps I'm expecting too much..
I have decided not to celebrate bday..
So this yr maybe I'll spend my bday working again just like last yr..
Bcos nobody rmb my bday.......
Thursday, August 11, 2011'♥
Yipee... Tmr is my off day and his off day too
No idea what to do tmr but gonna slp first..
Wake up le then decide what to do..
Dunno tmr will slp until what time..
Mmm.. Shopping??
Cousin's wedding nxt month
Until now I haven't buy clothing lohx
Dunno what to wear.. Wear dress??
Aiyo.. See first bahx..
Thinking of what to wear also make me headache..
Lolx.. :)
This month gonna spend my money wisely..
Really really gonna stop buying cigg le
I think I buy cigg 1 week 2 times lohx
So chor sia.. Haix..
If let him know that I keep smoking so heavily, he's gg to scold me Liao
Hehe.. Hope he won't find out..
Shhhh!!!! I'm gg to slp le..
Night night.. :)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011'♥
Things are back to normal
We r like the past..
But I'm still controlling my temper and trying very hard so that I won't bite me
I saw a mark on his hand that I left after biting
Feel so guilty.. The mark there seems to be telling me that I shouldn't torture him
So it keeps reminding me of what I've done to him
Today is our 5th month.
So fast.. Times flies.. 5 months Liao.
Mmm.. Recently work is fine..
But I dunno what I wan.. Mmm..
Cos if I work morning I cannot wake up
But if I work night, I feel sianz and will start complaining..
Aiyo.. I dunno what I wan
Nxt month is my bday..
Have no plans at all.
Just hope that he will be by my side that's all..
Hope it will come true.. :)
I'm gg to slp now.. Tmr working 8.30am..
Haha.. Hope it will not be busy..
Anyway, happy national day!!!!
Gd night.. :)
Monday, August 1, 2011'♥
Today I'm feeling so heartbroken
He said that i treat him like a slave.
I didn't know that he feels this way..
After he said that my tears were gg to roll down but I was working with Shida today
The words were really hurting and whenever I think of it, it feels like there is thousand of knife piercing through my heart.
I know that he is tired and he wants to slp but I was just joking at the moment of time
Now I know how he feels, all thks to the joke of mine..
I wasn't trying to torture him, I was just trying to say gd night to him
But he used the word torture...
I won't torture u anymore
U r not my slave... U r free to go..
I can only say that u hurt me deep inside my heart and not letting u feel tortured, I'm willing to let u go...
At first, I tot we will last long but in the end, I have to keep u inside my heart without letting u know that how much I hate to let u go..
'♥
hihi
here to update my blog..
haha.. though sometimes it's rotting..
today he did something that i'm very touched
he came to outlet to acc me to makan before i start my inventory
i know that he's tired but he made a effort to come down
hehehe.. really very touched... thks, my dear dear..
after eating, i went back to store to count stock..
but he helped me to count stock..
very sweet of him.. thks alot.. :)
i think i made him too tired le.. cos his face has the words, i'm very tired liao
haha.. he's sleeping soundly now.. and hope he's having a sweet dream..
he's been transferred to T1 to help out for 1 week
hope he'll come back asap.. cos i miss him.. :)
today he told me that he wan to go swimming, i totally disapprove
cos it's the ghost festival and it's dangerous..
it's for his own gd.. and i'll be very worried lohx..
hehe.. hope he will understand.. i wonder nxt week we got chance to go out tgt anot..
all different shift.. i will be working night shift almost everyday.. sibei sianz de lohx..
no life at all.. haix...
recently i go work, i feel very sianz..
no mood to go work lohx.. i'm always dragging myself to work
is it bcos short of manpower or i'm already tired of this kind of life?? i really dunno too..
i dunno what i wan and dunno wat i wan to do in the future..
i can't see my future and dunno wat r my goals in life..
i wan to study but i dunno wat i shd study...
i'm thinking shd i study event planning or what..
aiyo... dunno lahx.. everyone has their goals in life but not me.. shag..
xiao heng have his plans, he knows what he wants to do in the future
when he talks about his future life, he is always smiling...
but it made me feel that i'm pulling him down.. cos i scared he will feel that i'm a person with no future..
does he feel that way too??? i dunno..
i just wan to be a person who can assist him regardless it's now or in the future
although i dunno how long we can keep this relationship gg but i just wan to help him as much as possible..
tmr working night..
yipee.. can slp till 12 liao..
these few days super tired lohx..
keep yawning and the eyes macam cannot open sia..
haha.. now then i know slp is very important in life sia.. lolx..
gd night to all.. hehe.. :)
