Today I'm feeling super emo
Actually it's just a joke that I'm angry with him
But somehow it turns out to be us quarreling.
Ever since we started arguing, I always feel that it's my fault
I know u r a human not a robot
But can't u just give in to me..
Just once.. Let me be a child
Let me let out my temper
I know I might be ridiculous
But what can I do? This is just me
I can't control

The post at ur fb hurts me deeply
I'm always crying when we quarrel..
Crying non stop. How to stop??
I really dunno..

I'm back to work..
Feeling damn tired..
Finally finish work le.
Having headache now..
Today he lose his temper, I think
Dunno for what reason
Is it bcos of me? I dunno..

But after he lose his temper, I also got fed up
I also dunno why
Just feel like losing my temper lahx
But at that point of time, I had the intention to just end the relationship
Is it bcos i'm thinking too much
I seriously dunno..
I just feel like gg back to the past..
How can I do it??
Does he feel the same as well??
I just dunno what the hell is gg on
I'm tired and just wanna cry out..

Here to blog again
Yesterday, today and tmr is my off day
Haha.. Off for 3 days..
Shiok.. Although shiok but rotting at home

Today I went out with my xiao heng
Hehe.. Was with him the whole day..
We went to watch movie..
Watched mr poppers penguins
Mmm.. Quite funny
But dunno he like the movie anot
Cos I didn't ask him
Hehe.. We bought earrings and went around for window shopping
The feeling was quite gd
Hehe.. But I know that this kind of chances dun come easy
Bcos we seldom have same off day..
So I'll cherish it alot

Yawns.. I'm starting to feel tired
Feel like sleeping le bahx
Hope tmr I will not be bored
Lolx.. Nights.. 

today i lose my temper to him for no reason
haix.. although feeling guilty but when i see him laughing and being happy with other girls
my heart had a heart break sound
why is it happening??
is it bcos i'm too in love with him le..
he's a gd tempered guy and i dun wanna lose him
but i can't do anything about my temper
i tried to change but somehow it's too hard to control
haix.. i just hope nth will change bahx..

i'm feeling so so so tired.. 
i worked from 10.30am to 10.30pm lohx
my eyes keep on want to close
but when i think that what is gg on between me and him, i just couldn't slp
haix.. crazy me..
today didn't say gd night to him
i feel so sad and heartbroken when i didn't say..
haix.. sometimes he just dunno that i'm sad
he just dunno that i just need him to smile at me
but i still love him
i love his smell
i love the way he always smile at me
but how long can this last??
i wish it is for forever.. i wish..


today ah keng was scolding me about how i treated xiao heng
he said i was too much
i told him that bcos he was laughing happily with other colleagues
but ah keng said i dun have to give xiao heng a cold shoulder
haix.. i always have the guilty feeling
i always regret getting angry with u
i always regret saying things out that i didn't mean to say
i always do the wrong things that made u unhappy
aiyo.. stupid me to keep doing wrong things
anyway, i hope tmr will be a better day
i miss his hugs alot
how i wish i can hug him now or even listen to his voice..
but he's sleeping now.. so i think it's impossible..
so nevermind.
gd night, my xiao heng..
this is my gd night to u.. 

Here to blog again ~~~
today i'm feeling freaking tired lahx..
my eyes are shutting down every moment when i daze into the air..
lolx.. :p
these few days, i have been very happy
bcos he's there for me.. 
although sometimes he is quite a blockhead but when he says something sweet, i feel very touched..
mmm.. dunno whether is it bcos i'm half crazy or what.. 
he's a caring person.. he observe and he knows what i want..
but sometimes when i try to hint him to go out with me, he just dun get the point..
lolx.. that's quite irritating lohx..
cos i just dunno how to ask a guy out so i try to hint him..
but he just dun get the point.. so at the times, i get embarrassed when he dun get what i say..

i just love the way he is
but when i start to be alone, my mind will start to ttm
like now, i'm thinking that am i too stupid for him???
bcos he's clever and he has plans for the future..
he knows what kind of lifestyle he wants but for me, i totally dunno what i want
i dunno whether am i burden for him..
so let's say that if in the future, he's gg to study and he needs someone who can ask or what
seriously speaking, i'm in no help.. then i'll feel useless..
lolx.. so frankly speaking, i hope i can be someone who i can assist him..
:) i'm planning to go study but haven't decided on what course..
haha.. it's time to study and change my life
i'll go less clubbing, less smoking and less playful..
anyway, i'll start to plan slowly..

yawns.. tired tired
tmr working 1.30pm
haha.. OT OT again~~~
yipee. i'm so so so broke this month..
dunno where the hell all my money went to..
gosh.. save me, pls.. 
i'm gg to sell my body to earn money liao.. lolx.. just kidding..
haha.. i'm gonna save save save..
eat cup noodles and maggi everyday till pay day.. 
JIAYOU, PRIS!!!! U CAN DO IT!!!!
nights... update another day..

today i'm in a gd mood
:) xiao heng came to outlet and my mood came back
maybe is bcos i miss him too much and i'm too paranoid..
i keep venting my anger at him
i feel guilty towards him when i have cooled down
he always make me have this kind of feeling.. the guilty feeling..
i hope i can change and hope he can endure bahx..

he wore the shirt that i bought for him
i'm really very happy that he's wearing it..
i was still worrying that he will throw it away lohx
:) happy (:
hey.. i know that u will be reading my blog..
so i want to tell u something
i love u lots and miss u lots..
thks for the endurance towards me
i know that sometimes i'm childish, unreasonable and lose my temper
but everytime after losing my temper or what, i really feel very guilty
i will start thinking that i didn't even think about how u feel..
which made me feel that i'm very selfish
i wanna say sry to u, i'm sry for being so bad towards u..
i shd spare a though for u..
although i dunno how long i will take to change my temper
i hope i will control it.. it's always my temper problem that makes me ttm
i'm always protecting myself not to get hurt in relationship
bcos u know about what happen btw me and ming and derrick, right??
but can i believe that u won't hurt me like the way they did??
can i??  
dunno when u will see this post


mmm.. what shd i do for my off day??
cycling?? sleeping??

today i'm feeling super tired
everything seems to be not right for me
i can't stop to ttm..
can't find someone to talk to..
nobody is answering my call
but i myself also dunno what is wrong with me
i feel insecure
i dun feel happy
i feel moody
i just feel like listening to sad songs and cry..

i also appear happy infront of others.. 
but nobody know that inside me is a sad and totally unhappy pricillia
sometimes when i need him by my side, i also dun dare to tell him
i scared that i'm always tieing him down
he said before that he needs some personal time alone 
actually whenever i want to look for him, i will think of him saying that..
haix.. i think i'm gg to break down..
this is the only space that i have to say my feelings..

i have to learn to be independent
can't rely on him too much..
cos if i'm relying on him too much, when we break up i really will go crazy
if only he is beside me now.. tonight is the night that i really feeling like crying non stop
i feel like hugging him.. i miss him
but i can't tell him that i miss him, he's not picking up the phone
i start to feel insecure
i feel so useless
i hope i can use a penknife and cut my wrist now
i want to get out of the world...........
if only i can...................

tmr working 1.30pm..
hope i can have a happy day..
i wan to live happily, can i????

Now sitting at maju camp canteen with my mum
Eating and waiting for the orientation
Woke up at 7am to send my bro to the camp
Later working at 2.30pm
Sianz.. Dunno got energy to work anot..
But I can't wait for night time to come..
Faster come faster come... :)

Today working 1.30pm.
Actually is 12.30pm but Shida ask me to work 1.30pm
Haha.. At least can slp longer..
Later gg to popular to buy stationary stuff for outlet use
And buy mcd for Farain
Haha..

Today is Thursday..
Tmr is Friday..I can't wait to see him
Hope he can come out tmr
Today work night.. Lolx..
I'm gg to bath now and prepare for work le..
Update again tonight or when i'm free..
Ciao!!! :)

Was feeling super hungry just now
But my bro cooked Maggie for me..
Haha.. Felt like a queen at home..
The Maggie was delicious!!
Dunno whether is it bcos I'm hungry then I will feel that the Maggi is delicious..

Xiao heng called me just now..
Hehe.. His voice makes me miss him even more
:) on the 8 is our 3 months..
I'm very happy and touched that he still rmb..
Tmr I'm working 12.30pm.
Almost everyday I got ot lohx..
Haha.. I'm gg to wash the plates le
Cos my bro say he cook and I wash the plates
So I'm gg to wash plates now..
Good bye.. And gd night.. 

Finally is break time...
So so hungry lohx..
Today I ate orange chicken and a slice Of choc banana cake
Haha.. I'm feeling so full now..
Today as usual, I didn't smoke..
I wonder if xiao heng got smoke abot

Today he didn't call me..
Sianz.. He dunno that I'm waiting for his call de mehx??
Not even 1 SMS from him
But ytd he told me that he'll be busy today
So I think he's busy bahx..
I must think positively.. Dun ttm..
So tired.. Feel like sleeping after a full stomach
Haha.. I shall go for a nap before gg out to work
Bye bye.. :)

I'm back from my shopping today at far east and bugis with mary
haha.. i bought so many things today..
i bought 1 heels 1 shoe, 1 tee shirt for xiao heng, 1 sling bag and eyelash glue etc..
dunno how much i spend le..
until now, he didn't call me.. did he fall asleep??
his last call was at 7plus when i was eating with mary 
he said he will sms me de, feeling damn sad when i didn't receive a sms or call from him
maybe he's busy bahx... i think so...


tmr is working 11.30am to 10.30pm
it will be a long long day bahx..
i wonder i work closing with who.. 
macky is not around from tmr till nxt week..
it will be a boring day, nobody make fun of me and nobody to joke with me
sianz.. 
hehe.. today i nv smoke at all.
cool sia.. very soon.. i will be living in a smoke free world...

the shirt that i bought for him.. hope he will like it.. :)

Now I'm on the way to meet my cousin at far east.
Haha.. Using iPhone now to blog..
The feeling is quite cool lahx..
Nxt time I can use iPhone to blog le.. Hehe..
But the font here and the colour of the font is super ugly lahx..
Anyway, nevermind. Nobody will see..

Today I'm gg to shop..
Wondering whether will I buy anything I like today.
I miss my xiao heng but today is tuesday..
Very fast very fast, the days of waiting will pass..
I will wait till the day come..
I miss his voice now..

Today is the first day he went back for reservist

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